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Life is always about taking control of yourself right? When the going gets tough, the tough get going? I don't know. I'd like to think that I was in great control of my life. In fact, that was how I was raised, that you were responsible for everything around you. No money in the bank? That's YOUR fault. No job? That's YOUR lazy fault! So I pretty much take responsibility for everything I do. I don't really blame other people, but at the same time I think this compels me to take a lot more responsibility, to say "Oh, I can handle it," and then I overexert myself and give myself unnecessary stress, and then I bitch out at people

Today was the Conversations With Alums dinner that I had been working on for the past two months. It was jointly held on behalf of the engineering sorority Alpha Omega Epsilon (of which I am the president!), and the Society of Women Engineers, and the Women in Engineering program. We invited a bunch of alums to come and speak about some advices about their careers, their undergraduate work, etc. There was a free dinner, and I gave Hershey's kisses to everyone. Aside from a few snafus (I ordered the wrong tables, we didn't need the chairs at all), it was a great success, with both the undergraduates and the alums enjoying their time. I want to make it a yearly event (my legacy! gasp). But anyways, everything was well, I got balloons from the supermarket, and drove around with balloons in my back seat all day (I couldn't see through the rear view mirror!)

Linear circuits is pretty my "ridiculous" class of the semester. On one hand, I can understand the concepts (voltage, capacitance, Thevenin, mesh current) well, along with the sign convention and a wicked grasp on matrices, but on the other hand I have trouble envisioning the concepts. For example, today we did some open amps with feedback (whatever the HELL that means), and the picture looked seriously like a triangle with lines emerging and converging into it (oh, one of the highlights of the class is being able to draw squiggly lines as resistor representation and linear circuits), and I was getting the right answers, but I really did not know how I was getting them. Oh, and today, my classmate and I assembled our first proto-board circuit ever. It was a major accomplishment, considering that I had never seen one of those things before entering college, and I barely understood how they operated. At least the TA is attractive. An electrical engineering TA who's not fugs - amazing!

The gym is going pretty good. I still haven't stepped foot on the campus gym - I'm seeing how long I can hold out, and so far I'm thriving. I'm going to the mini luxury gym our apartment complex made for us, and it suits me, with an elliptical and some free weights. I'm no longer bulking that much anymore, but I'm still using the weights. This weekend, I'm going to see snow for the first time in 13 years, as I go with some alums to Big Bear. I am pretty much scared because 1. I have no appropriate clothes, 2. I might need snow chains, 3. I'm pretty much guaranteed to make an ass of myself

Tomorrow is work time. I'm looking forward to it. I'm finishing up my electrical engineering homework right now so I can relax a little. Okay, back to drawing squiggly lines

Current airplay - Spoon, Ga Ga Ga Ga Ga. It's pretty good, but I spent the entire day listening to Pepper, Just Jack, and Sublime, so it's kind of grating. At least I'm no longer listening Hannah Montana (or openly admitting to it)

Current song obsession - "Tradewinds" Pepper, Kona Town. Download it. Seriously. The band's from Hawai'i, and the song is actually a beautiful gem hidden amongst sexed romp music